Ever had them days...

Have you ever had them days where you feel empty, no emotions you just feel sick and depressed. No one can put a smile on your face, not even your favourite film or person? When all you want to do is dream about happiness and all the regrets you have and how you can change them if you could; all the things you wish you had and you wish you hadn't...

Yeah I've in that certain mood today! Not only that but not even justin bieber can make me smile. All I've done today is sit around and felt like being  sick and crying untill theres no tears left. You don't know what's happened or what you've done but you feel like the whole world is hating on you and bitching beside your back... Like life is giving you a punishment for no reason. 

There's no symptoms and all you can do is dream and forget about everyone and everything. Hope that tomorrow is going to be the total opposite to today and maybe life might make you happy for once! You want to tell people how you feel and if your the only one with feeling this way but you can't be doing with even talking to someone or seeing anyone without hitting them across the face. You feel so lonely and bored, but even with people who try to talk to you, you in a way want to be alone and feel lonely! 

It's so confusing being in this type of mood but there's no way out of it, all I want to do is sleep but I can't, something is in my mind but I don't know what. I feel sick and ill, something keeps me wondering and worrying  about something but its not clear . It's so stressful and depressing.....

You sort of feel like nothing and no one cares about you or your feelings, it's wrong but so right at the same time........?

Best friends forever??

So hey, been a while since I've last blogged my life but I've been on two holidays since then :) they both were sooo goooddddd! One to the nice sometimes friendly Germany and the super active Centre Parcs in England (my home country).... Yeah I'm British yay me! 

Anyways my holidays are not the centre of conversation on this post it's my problem with my best friend. Me and my bestie who shall not be named but ill use a code name like shity, if you know me and her, you'll get the pun. Well going back on my one of many problems, me and shity aren't as close as we were but we went on holiday to centre parcs. It's really weird as this one girl - that's already done this before on another girl with her bestfriend on our table - is getting more closer and I know this sounds childish but its  like taking shity aways from me. Honestly no joke everyone on my table already are starting to notice  as well of me. What should I say, I mean the other day this best pal robber said she'll never do that but really... ? Should I believe her, :( I'm so confused but in a different kind of way... 

Is there any advice you guys have for me ??.?

Xoxo this pic below are these rings me and shity really want and it's meant to mean forever....