A kiss can ruin everything....

hey guys!
Have you ever kissed someone who you either had a crush on or were one of your friends? If you have, did that ruin your relationship or your feelings towards them in anyway?
Well it has for me and one of my closest friend :(


Let me start this off by telling you mine and my friend's relationship before the kiss [insert the horror music]....


me and this boy, who im going to call A because I really don't want anyone to know who he is so its a top secret, have known each other since primary school which is such a long time ago that basically it means we've been friends most of our lifes and we know a lot about each other. He's a typical lad who thinks nothing other than football,boxing,xbox and girls with big tits and asses! I'm the typical girl to him who does nothing but watching click flicks, fangirl over bieber and other hot boys and loves parties... that's all true but honestly im not one of them typical girls who are slags and so on (I spend most of my time watching American horror story, janoskians and doctor who while reading John Green books).


Anyway, me and A go to a lot of parties and everytime we go we always talk or dance together as we have that certain friendship but there was this one party, I wanted to get with someone and so did he, me and him asked people who was single and was looking for a kiss. I had no luck in finding a boy so I just took a seat at the side where everyone was dancing. Personally I needed a sit down as I was feeling down that day anyway and this party was supposed to keep my mind off it all. While I was watching my best friends dancing under the disco lights, A comes up to me and sits down pretty close. I asked him if he was okay and we kind of told each other of troubles and he leaned in for a kiss, I followed him and we kissed like that.


I didn't tell anyone but I guess everyone saw it happen anyway. The next school day was horrible, we were the talk of the school and our friendship was ruined like that!I mean we still talk but there's that awkwardness still there... It's sad but I guess all we have to do is maybe kiss again ;) I wish, on the positive side , he was a good kisser hahahaa
xoxoox

Luke Brooks is perfect!!

Hey guys, its been soooooo long since I've wrote on this but I have been busy doing things, I had my sweet 16th party a couple of months I go and it has the best ever! I know how to party ;) ......
Anyway basically the last few months of last year were so good and hopefully 2014 is a good year .... So this blog is about my new big obsession and how I need to get a sort of life. Ha!
Luke brooks is my obsession and its pretty big, I started watching the funny as fuck videos of Janoskians a while ago and honestly I couldn't stop!! That's when it started ahahha!
So now I think im in love with Luke Brooks and he doesn't even know I exist :( its sad real sad tbh! I mean hes like perfect:
(my lists are so cool)

• He has TATTOOOSSS (loads of them too)
• He loves the biebs (and that's hot)
• He has a super sense of humour (a weird but awesome one)
• He has a hot body (damnnnnn)
• He has curly and cute hair (Brown AND blonde, omg!!!)
• He has the cutest eyes and lips (yummy)
• He's a hot aussie (accents and all)
• He's single (and ready to mingle)

I just love him!!! I wish I could just go up to him and kiss his beautiful face off!!!!!






So whos your obsessions??? I wanna know!!!!!
xoxo

Justin bieber's new song hits number one!!!

So im so happy right now, I've need waiting for like ages and ages for Justin bieber's new song - heartbreaker to come out on iTunes and when I found out on instagram that it was going come out on Sunday midnight, I freaked. All us beliebers have been waiting for forever and everyone posted pictures and posters around towns and Facebook to promote it. We needed it to get to number one and bat one direction's record!!!!
When it came out, I listened to it like non stop - seriously I became obsessed with it !!! The problem is that people are hating it and slacking it because it's not upbeat and 'boring', I mean I know its not going to be played in clubs at night but its a love song about being heartbroken by a heartbreaker (hint the name ..) so yeah its meant to be slow - its meaningful so shut up! The best thing about the whole thing is that every Monday now, Justin will add a new (better) song for ten weeks - no wonder he took so long in making us wait! I reckon the next song will be that roller-coaster one he was playing in that video yesterday! Teases us ...
I want to know what you guys think of it and if you like it as much as I do (which is a lot, trust me).. so comment!
Belieber till I die,, wooop!!
xoxo

wanting to move to america....

I live in the midlands in UK, I live in a place where there's nothing, nowhere to get a good job and hardly anything to do in my free time from school. This summer holidays, me and my friends had to go out of where we live so we could do fun things with everyone. I honestly hate where I live and I'm been thinking about if I could move where I would go..

Then I thought America is my dream location to live in, there's so many places to go there and its so big!! I would love to live in California where there's nice weather, gorgeous houses and places where I could go to have a good time! I would to go and live there; I've dreamt about moving there but the problem is my mum or dad would have to get a job over there and we would all have to get a green card so we could move. Sometimes I would just love to be American so I wouldn't have to go through it all. The Uk's alright if you live in a place where's there's place to have fun and easily get a job there too.

But if I did move, I know that I probably wouldn't miss anyone expect for my family and best friend, I wouldn't miss my other friends as much and I know that if my mum said that we could move to America, I wouldn't think twice about saying yes!!!

does anyone here want to move to somewhere else if they could???

xoxo

 

Whisper???

So I was basically minding my own business on Facebook as you do when I came across this new app that's been out for a while (I think) and its called Whisper. I decided to download it for free -Yay - and see what all the gossip was about..
Its not hard to work out that its where you upload pictures and on it is something that is secret and either people can 'heart' it, reply to it or message you privately which tbh is pretty weird.... Anyways I thought ill start so I have and for my first day, its gone pretty well expect from this weird man - I think - whos asked for my facebook name and told me that you'll take me to 'orgasmland' which as far as I know doesn't exist (well I hope not, or that would be fll of predos like him/her).
All I can say is go and get the app, its cool and your basically letting out all your worries and secrets, but you could get abuse off it still, try it like I did!
P.s. I love blogging and the people who read my posts, it means so much!
x

Coming back from holidays!

Everyone loves holiday right? Yeah, even just the ones that you go to in the same country with your family. Their fun and different; you can relax or do exciting activities like climbing up mountains or diving into deep oceans. Holidays are what makes summer, summer! 

I went to Turkey last week where I went to my first five star hotel which just my luck, all the hot boys were either German or another language I don't know. :( (I'm learning German at school but at the moment I'm shocking, going retake both my exams next year). I've also got a totally natural tan now, from the boiling hot sun and got some new purple dre beats, a Hollister top to add to my collection, a lakers jersey which I've fallen in love with and a pair of nike air Maxs! Yay me!! 

But the biggest problem about holidays isn't the security checks at airports but the important gossip you haven't heard or all the posts that your missed on Facebook and Instagram. All through my holiday  I've had to wait till the end of seven long days to find out if justin biebers new song is out yet but luckily, it isn't be because  I didn't want to miss that! And when you turn your phone on for the first time after you arrive in your country, all the messages from Facebook, whatsapp, bbm and texts come through and you have to go through them all! It takes forever but they're all full of gossip and story's from the last week. I think that's the problem with being aboard, with no Internet or even just a tiny bit where it's so slow there's no point, and missing out on everything. I've missed two parties while I went including one of my best friends who invited the boy I like!:( but yay, what party's better than new clothes and a gorgeous tan! Woop woop yay! 

X

Ever had them days...

Have you ever had them days where you feel empty, no emotions you just feel sick and depressed. No one can put a smile on your face, not even your favourite film or person? When all you want to do is dream about happiness and all the regrets you have and how you can change them if you could; all the things you wish you had and you wish you hadn't...

Yeah I've in that certain mood today! Not only that but not even justin bieber can make me smile. All I've done today is sit around and felt like being  sick and crying untill theres no tears left. You don't know what's happened or what you've done but you feel like the whole world is hating on you and bitching beside your back... Like life is giving you a punishment for no reason. 

There's no symptoms and all you can do is dream and forget about everyone and everything. Hope that tomorrow is going to be the total opposite to today and maybe life might make you happy for once! You want to tell people how you feel and if your the only one with feeling this way but you can't be doing with even talking to someone or seeing anyone without hitting them across the face. You feel so lonely and bored, but even with people who try to talk to you, you in a way want to be alone and feel lonely! 

It's so confusing being in this type of mood but there's no way out of it, all I want to do is sleep but I can't, something is in my mind but I don't know what. I feel sick and ill, something keeps me wondering and worrying  about something but its not clear . It's so stressful and depressing.....

You sort of feel like nothing and no one cares about you or your feelings, it's wrong but so right at the same time........?